SAINT MOTHER TERESA OF KOLKATA....had doubts about her FAITH...which is called SHRDH`DHaa in vED SCIENCES......
Posted by Vishva News Reporter on August 31, 2007


Beatification At Vatican, October 19, 2003 of
Blessed Mother Teresa of Calcutta

Mother Teresa used to say:

"By blood, I am Albanian. By citizenship, an Indian. By faith, I am a Catholic nun. As to my calling, I belong to the world. As to my heart, I belong entirely to the Heart of Jesus."

On December 21, 1948 she went for the first time to the slums in Kolkata, India. She visited families, washed the sores of some children, cared for an old man lying sick on the road and nursed a woman dying of hunger and TB.

She started each day in communion with Jesus in the Eucharist and then went out, rosary in her hand, to find and serve Him in the unwanted, the unloved, the uncared for. After some months, she was joined, one by one, by her former students.

PVAF's mandate is to share with entire humanity KNOWLEDGE about the creation in which the current humanity exists on this planet earth....This KNOWLEDGE is defined as GNaan in sNskRUt language of TOTAL LIFE SCIENCES called vED ...and consists of the following 3 main categories:

the design of this creation,

2)  how the design once manifested into visible and invisible perception is sustained and made to grow and

3) when any creation completes a life cycle from birth to death, how that creation is recycled into another creation form in another time zone and in another part of creation domain.....

In the study of vED SCIENCES, one would find that the above three categories of GNaan do not exist in isolation of each other or independently of each other but exists as ONE but manifests as infinite forms and names....with each form and name ordained with definite powers of making life of a creation functional as per its design, manifestation, operation, maintenance and recycling......

One of the powers which make the above integration into ONE with diversity of manifestation is the power of unconditional and total faith in the ONE....this power of faith is known as SHRDH`DHaa in vED SCIENCES....

Whenever this SHRDH`DHaa  in any creation is even shaken or worst-case-scenario destroyed, then the creation starts to falter on its life path and its the point that worst-case-scenario would be the creation ends up becoming the form and name of  "stone".......

Please click on the line at the end of this main section of this news item to read how this power of  SHRDH`DHaa was "shaken" in the case of the world famous personality of Saint Mother Teresa who spend her entire adult life trying to do something about elimination of poverty in India...... 

PVAF's regular contributor Champaklal Dajibhai Mistry who is also a late-in-life student of vED SCIENCES along with his 38 years of life practice Professional Engineer with Civil Engineering Degree has contributed his own writing in this column and the copy pasted the news story titled "Letters reveal Mother Teresa’s struggle with her faith" on the next page from Edmonton Journal.....And PVAF takes up this contribution to another level by asking YOU to share your thoughts on this news story of "ground-shaking" revelation by just clicking on the POST A COMMENT button in the header of this news and/or emailing your comments even as an email attachment by clicking here 

Mother Teresa

Letters reveal Mother Teresa’s
struggle with her faith:

Edmonton Journal: August 25, 2007: Helen Kenneday

Mother Teresa, a globally beloved symbol of saintly devotion to the poor, spent her last 50 years secretly struggling with doubts about her faith, her newly published letters show.

“If there be God — please forgive me. When I try to raise my thoughts to Heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my very soul,” she wrote.

“How painful is this unknown pain — I have no Faith.”

The letters paint an astonishing alternate portrait of the nun revered for her selflessness and serenity. In reality, she was tortured for decades by her inability to feel even the smallest glimmer of the Lord’s presence.

She felt abandoned by Christ, referred to Jesus as “the Absent One,” and called her own smile “a mask.”

In the 1960s, after receiving an important prize, she wrote, “This means nothing to me, because I don’t have Him.”

Sixty-six years worth of her deeply personal letters to superiors and confessors — preserved by the Catholic Church despite her dying wish that they be destroyed — are published in a new book, Mother Teresa: Come Be My Light, excerpted in Time magazine.

The book is by the Rev. Brian Kolodiejchuk, director of the Mother Teresa Center and the driving force behind efforts to canonize her.

She was beatified in 2002, just six years after her death – the fastest beatification ever, though it may be overtaken by John Paul II.

This is the step before formally being declared a saint.

“I’ve never read a saint’s life where the saint has such an intense spiritual darkness. No one knew she was that tormented,” Kolodiejchuk said. “It will give a whole new dimension to the way people understand her.”

He argues that the depth of her spiritual suffering increases her saintliness.

Most believers suffer from crises of faith, but the duration of Teresa’s alienation from Christ seems extreme.

It began, she said, soon after she set up her Missionaries of Charity in Calcutta in the late 1940s to succor India’s poor. And it lasted, with only a joyous five-week respite in 1959 when she refound God, until her death at age 87, a decade ago.

“There is such terrible darkness within me, as if everything was dead. It has been like this more or less from the time I started ‘the work,’ ” she wrote in 1953.

After Pope Pius XII died in October 1958, Teresa prayed to him for proof that God was pleased with her work.

“Then and there,” she rejoiced, “disappeared the long darkness ... that strange suffering of 10 years.”

But five weeks later she reported being “in the tunnel” again, and her dark night of the soul never lifted.

The nun, born Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu to ethnic Albanian parents in what is now Macedonia, coped with what she termed her “spiritual dryness” by likening it to Christ’s doubt on the cross.

“I have come to love the darkness for I believe now that it is part of a very, very small part of Jesus’ darkness & pain on earth,” she wrote in 1961./>
Teresa was a 36-year-old convent teacher riding on a train in India on Sept. 10, 1946, when she said Christ spoke to her directly, telling her to become a missionary in the slums to help the poorest of the poor. “Come be My light,” is what she heard.

Back then, she felt a deeply personal bond with Jesus, recounting conversations and visions. It was that loss that she mourned the rest of her life, although she never abandoned her work.

The Vatican insisted Friday that Mother Teresa’s path to sainthood would not be affected by her deep crisis of faith.

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